INFINITY — MY CONDITION

it's so hard.

if u're leaving

don't say bye.

i am drowning

in the sky.

my heart's wounding-

it wants to fly.

will-o'-the-wisps

are leading to dead-end.

somewhere wind whisps,

but i just suffocate.

have u ever

seen my soul?

it's like dark black

dieing crow.

there's no fire

anymore,

it is like

a tired whore.

fuck the shadows

in my mind.

past kills me

and future's blind.

i'm not human:

i want to kill,

there's no feelings

i want to feel.

in many skies

you choose the one.

so many lies

have just begun.

there's special signs

to stop the war

between my angel

and my whore.

i am the devil

i'm the god,

and there's a middle

in my heart.

so interesting to know

so hard to see,but

sometime i'll reach

and i will BE.

i don't know where

i'm not sure how

but somebody's there,

who helps me now.

i know the road

i learn the way

and i will find

this road some day.